Ah I haven't updated it ages! Well here I am sitting on a bed, on the third floor of the cabin. I am sick today, I think it's the flu. Normally I am pretty healthy, but today not so much. My birthday is this weekend I will be 20 years old! wow I will be consideedan adult in most of the world! Sigh an adult, it sounds so daunting! I don't think I am ready for it yet, looking back at my childhood there are still so many things I want to do... but it's too late now! It feels kind of sad yeah! I want to go back and redo some of the things I did... out of all my life, I wish I would have enjoyed time with my family more when I was younger, becuase